Clowns are Faithful

It seems that I've spent much of my life standing motionless in the rain
The tears I've cried and still do can easily go unnoticed down the drain
I am very blessed and grateful that I've made some headway here
But that doesn't mean the work is done and the path is free and clear
That is so and I'm positive I know, because the lonely wolf remains
I wrecked so much, I ran them off with my demons and my fears
The love of few, the distractions I used, hoping the end was finally near
I never really realized that you can't easily self-medicate the crazy all away
But yet I did and never veered, ready to fuck it up until forever and a day
Little things still snag me and make me go into orbit, I guess they always will
The things that hurt the deepest now are not the ones that cripple, ruin and kill
It's the wasted time I squandered, the minutes and the hours, and far too many days
It's the love I should have cultivated with so many lovely people I met along the …

I Am

I Am I am loving and caring
I wonder why others are not
I hear that happiness cannot be bought
I see anger and conflict in both their eyes
I want for them days without the cries
I am loving and caring

I pretend not to hear it all
I feel as if their world will truly fall
I touch my cheek for a tear
I worry that it's an unhealthy fear
I cry because I feel the hurt
I am watching their world go into the dirt

I understand love isn't always enough
I say too much on it and sometimes am tough
I dream of a better place
I try to put a smile on my face
I hope true love saves them both
I am loving and caring